"Did you
mean to say I am cheating on you? I am breaking your trust?” I asked
“Yes you are!! Then what was the reason behind
that? What you were doing with that guy, yesterday evening?” He asked me
(Rather than asking, I should say he
was shouting at me…without listening to me)
“Yes I was with him. He came to meet me
because he wanted to discuss about his lost job, as he was so depressed…(in between he stopped me..and started
shouting..)
“Why he wanted to discuss his job problems
with you? Why?” he shouted
“Will you please stop shouting..please calm
down. Today I came here to share with this with you only…(again in between he stopped me..)
“Why today? Why didn’t you told me yesterday
night, when we were talking? What are you hiding from me? He asked me
“Yesterday night you were so happy, when you
were talking about your new project. I didn’t want to spoil it. And for this
only, to tell you..to share with you..I called you to meet me urgently” I tried
to explain and to make him calm down.
“If you are so concern about my happiness
then, why you went to meet him? He asked
“He called me day before yesterday and over
the phone he was sounding so sad and dejected and then I told him to meet
me..and tell me what’s the matter” I said
“Oh! You called him to meet!! Why? Why
suddenly he became so important to you?” He asked
“You know sweetheart, he is my friend from
school time and as a friend he is important…and” (he stopped me)
“If he is your friend and so important to you
then, who am I? What am I doing here? Tell me” he asked
“Why are you talking like this? You too are
important to me..you are eternal part of my life…my love…for me both relations
are different..please listen to me…you are more important to me”
(I had tears in my eyes while saying
this, I just felt, he will leave me….! Why it become so difficult to prove your
love to “your love”)
“Yes, I am listening…say” he said
“No, you are not listening to me….you are not
listening what my heart, my emotions, my each drop of tears are saying to you.
Your temper had just closed ears of your heart…that heart, which is always
ready to listen to me” I said
“Yes, I am angry with you. You called him to
meet and you are telling me this after all this has happened…now why you need
to tell me?” again he started shouting
“Sweetheart at that moment, whatever came to
my mind I did. But there was no such thought of hiding anything from you” I
told him
“Ok, but still my question to you is the
same…why you met him? Why??” He shouted
“I told you the whole truth..why you are not
believing me sweetheart? What is bothering you?” I asked him
“He is bothering me…your friend…I don’t like
when he is around you, I don’t like when you care for him, I don’t like when
you share your love with anyone..all these are bothering me. And now if you are
so concern about him, you are free to leave me and if I am so important to you
then, you leave him. Now you have to decide, whom you will choose…your love or
your friendship”
He said and left me alone in the CCD
to think, to take decision, to choose between love and friendship. I never
tried to mix them. I was sitting
there..with tears in my eyes, pain in my heart..i totally became numb.
I felt like my heart is going to break
in parts. There is fight in between, who will have this heart love or
friendship. For me, both I need..both my heart wants…my brain was not ready to
answer anything…now alone my heart was there in between the fight of love and
friendship.
I thought what came in between these
two…my love and my friendship? Because of whom I am on this path where I need
to choose between one? What it is? And that time my brain replied “it is
Insecurity..which is killing both relations”
Yes it was insecurity…which came in
between. Sometimes it is good…because of it you feel protected by someone,
cared by someone but yes this insecurity sometimes turns into evil also..which
will create fights..which will makes you apart from each other..which will
leave you on a path buddle full of questions with no clue for a single
answer…which will finally start killing your relations.
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