Fasla to hai par koi fasla nahi,,,
Mujhse tu juda sahi par dil se juda nahi...
Lost in these lines of yours I m trying to find you in my
life which is no more mine and taken away by you. My eyes shade tears for you,
heart beats only for you, mind every time thinks about you, ears are desperate
to hear your voice once again. My name which used to sound sweetest in your
voice has now lost its meaning.
Every time I read our old conversation I miss you even more,
tears come out and give heavy competition to rain. All songs that you sang for
me now seem rythmless. My smile has lost its dimples, eyes have stopped
twinkling like stars, and colors of flowers has been fade away. My tea is tasteless;
sleep is restless in absence of you. It’s hard for me now to find comfort
anything.
Yesterday while reading our conversation my eyeballs stucked
in one line where you said we are best friends. That time I wanted to tell you
how much I like you, think about you, care for you and that I want to be
something more than just friends, but unwillingly I agreed because I have
always respected and trusted you. May be you yourself were not satisfied with
your statement that’s why you told me, read again and understand what I want to
convey. You further added I never want to loose a sweet friend like you. I
think you have noticed my love and care for you or may be you have been feeling
the same for me. I don’t know why but I decided not to express my feelings as
it may hurt you. I wanted to everything to make you happy and decided to be
just friend.
Was it destiny, mere coincidence or your intuition that
after six months you were curious to know my feelings for you? Memories of that
night are still alive somewhere in my mind when you were provoking me to reveal
the truth I have been hiding for so long. I couldn’t fathom what you were up to
or what would be your reaction. I have never cared about your negative reaction
because nothing can change my love for you, and I have always believed that
love is a reciprocal thing it can’t be felt truly by one. I was just waiting
for that one moment. I expressed my love for you and to my surprise you
responded in positive. I was invigorated and dancing on cloud nine when
heartlessly you broke my dream and took me back to reality. You agreed that you
feel the same for me but you don’t think much about it as there is no future of
us. You didn’t want to loose a friend which you found in me. My heart was
shattered and broken into pieces, I felt myself as a fool. Somehow I gathered
courage and asked you that what name will you give to our relationship and you
with tears in your eyes replied ‘More than friend and less than lover.’
I tried not to think about you, care for you miss you and
above all love you but every attempt made me to love you even more. Some
feelings can never be changed but yes I accept you as more than friend and
less than lover.
Tu mere
saath hai
Mere aaj, mere kal
mein,
Haatho se chhuta hath hai
Teri
muskurati un yadon mein,,
Wo
batein ankahee reh gayi,
Wo
yadein adhuri reh gayi,,
Fir bhi
kahin na kahin,,
Mujh hi
me tu mere saath hai,,
Yehi sab
se pyara ehsas hai,,,,,
